Back then I had a home, family and work to return to, which of course is both good and nice for the platform we all need in life `s diverse tasks.
But this time the situation is different – everything in my home country is now torn up by the roots – the memories will always be there, like many of the home’s habits and rituals will characterize everyday’s life on my new platform in France.
A brief look over my shoulder at the wake witnesses many changes during the sail until this moment. Calm seas, high waves and even dangerous situations were the result of the trip in the past many years. Some situations I could have done without, but the biggest part has been the tale’s happy memories and a backpack with good experience and life’s many doctrines of man, which in itself is an extremely difficult task, but also exciting at the psychological level.
Working life has obviously been the dominant force throughout the nearly 45 years – including 25 years in the shipping industry’s varied and tough business, emphasized the universe, but also meeting and working with interesting people – Directors, dock workers, diplomats, captains and sailors who were aware of the overarching goal – production, service, performance and discipline.
Although shipping life’s diversity was very fascinating, exciting but too demanding, I decided to quit this part of my work – a new universe knocked on the door and this was actually my idea to use some of my youth’s academic skills combined with the many artistic areas I loved and cultivated to the extent possible.
This was the beginning of a new culture, a different type of people with other values than the environment I came from. In the beginning I found some more nuanced pictures of the cultural universe. It suited my thoughts about the way I wanted to spend the rest of my life. The development went quickly and before long I stood with a new company, other people and passionate inside, which burned for new and challenging tasks.
But with passionate teacher’s otherwise good intentions, it is easy to be disappointed. Many of the “artistic” talents I met on my way also had a different agenda – Money. And unlike the environment I came from, I found many so called professional and cultural unscrupulous people, who used ambusher’s worst drawer in order to enrich themselves based on other people’s expense. This was new to me and a method I was not familiar with in the business community’s otherwise tough universe.
There is a big difference between being false or intelligent. The cunning methods used is just as the fox who has several entrances and exits, but when the fox is coming outside the tomb’s protective walls, it will often be vulnerable and insecure, but still crafty enough to sneak up on chickens stealing for a living.
With three marriages behind me, I had learned a lot – but not enough. A woman claimed to be a professional in marketing and in fact, also a psychologist. I was offered professional work in marketing and website tasks which later proved to be pure fantasy and empty air. It was my fate of the bad kind – In business language it is called the loss of a debtor, but this was my most expensive acquaintance till date in loss of money and reputation.
After that I was obviously very aware of everything that was going on in people’s minds and actions, and here I found, unfortunately, many rotten vessels in the cultural universe that later became decisive for my own actions.
I’ve always loved life regardless of the circumstances which might occur in life’s many roads. Today, when I`m retired looking ahead to the third life age with my wonderful partner Catharina from the Netherlands – A woman who has just the qualities I like and the intelligence needed to navigate through life’s many winding roads and paths, but also with a strong character of honesty and understanding of the many conditions that exist, when the tale’s invisible and boundary pushing samples will be tested.
Just as in the world of animals we all have an instinct to either warn or incite us to work or relax at the right times – also called intuition, which in today’s modern and hectic life is an important factor in everything we do. It can be difficult to understand and, if so I usually let the doubt be an expression of something we should avoid. I have analyzed and followed many people’s lives and destinies in many years and today reached the conclusion, that too many people let themselves be cowed by the aggressive and impetuous types being people who often have an inferiority complex and using just the aggressive as a weapon for their own defense.
Life must be lived forwards, not backwards, and with the changes happening in today’s world, you may need to be at the forefront of many aspects of life. This and more, is one of the reasons that I joined a former colleague and elite soldier. Together we will be running some training courses in France for this proportion of people, who have the courage and desire to learn and succeed in life´s updated realities, where areas such as terrorism, demonstrations and crime is becoming more and more prevalent in this otherwise beautiful world.
Adventure is associated with a large appetite for life but also instructive and sometimes dangerous depending on where and whither the journey goes. Not all people have the same agenda, so it may be necessary to take extra care of any “enemies”. Enmity and hatred usually occur because of strong disagreements and ultimately may end up with a terrible end, whether we are talking about physical or mental violence.
The driving force in man’s life can vary from person to person. And just adventurous souls have often an uncontrollable urge to try out all the senses as we were awarded from the time we were born. A craving that rarely stops halfway in life, but continues to the final destination. Dreams are either pursued or fulfilled, but not without paying a price which may consist of both financial loss and human scars on the soul and body. Whether it is worth the price is an individual matter, but I have never regretted my own actions but instead learned to turn a negative to constructive and useful constellations.
We live based on borrowed time, and any “loans” must be respected and handled with care – without this we will slowly exhale through the soul’s painful cry for help.
La Croix Valmer, France